Har-de-har. Daze. Days. I’m a goshdang master of words y’all.
It’s been a little while. I’ve been focusing a lot of my energy on Booked All Night lately, as well as my job. I’ve since gotten a permanent position at a children’s department in a different branch, so it’s been kind of fun. The gremlins, I mean, children, are always a bundle of fun. My co-workers make it a wild ride.
I’ve put away the YA Queer Ex-Princess Fantasy I was working on. It was giving me a lot of grief and I need to step away from that world for a while. I picked up my YA Lesbian Pirate Mermaids (no actual mermaids in the draft… I should fix that) and finished the first draft. It’s only been several years. I wrote the first iteration of the story back during my undergrad sometime between 2014 and 2015. I lost access to the original file, since that was on my last laptop. And that laptop had a motherboard meltdown back in August 2018. Oops.
I’ve picked up and put down this piece maybe two or three times. It just goes to show that you never really know when it’s the right time for a story. Sometimes it just has to sit in a folder on your OneDrive for a couple of years after you nearly lost 1/3rd of it during a train trip because the cloud sync you had it set up on on Scrivener decided to be a pain and not work and delete the 10k+ words you’d written and give you a meltdown somewhere outside Toledo.
But you know. Creativity. Writing is a wild journey!
So I finished the draft at the back half of May, gave it a few weeks to sit and rest, and I’ve been slowly working through revisions.
It’s been nearly two weeks and I’ve done six chapters.
I’m not great at this whole “consistent writing” business.
I’ve been slowly working my way through that as well as reading a bunch of arcs. So many of them are coming out this fall. It’s like an early birthday present for me!
It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything about my writing life. So let’s go!
I recently submitted my second packet work to my mentor. It’s my final semester and I’m writing my thesis now. It’s a lot to think about, and the added pressure that this project is going to define me as I get my MFA is just an extra dollop of stress and anxiety on top of my usual anxiety.
I want to present my best work, I always want to be able to show people what my best work is, but I’ve come to a realization that this project will never be my best work.
I’m falling in and out of love with this piece on a near daily basis. Some days I like it and some days I think it needs to die in a trash fire. But this goes beyond the usual Writer Thing writers do. It’s a urban fantasy/fantasy fiction/paranormal type piece (I used to call it suburban fantasy but paranormal probably fits better). The problem with this piece is that it’s entirely too contemporary for me.
I’m a huge lover of fantasy and my writing voice reflects that. Contemporary is not even close to my favorite. It’s my least favorite genre, to be honest. But the story I’m trying to write goes beyond just the genre, since it’s a story about grief and accepting the loss of a loved one.
But all I want to do is write my queer elven princesses and lesbian mermaids.
It’s a struggle.
But sometimes the things you want to do aren’t the things you need to do. I know this project will be a good thing to have in my pocket, regardless of how I feel about it. Plenty of authors have written books they hated, but the point was that it was a book they wrote.
Something is better than nothing and I’m 50 pages deep into this project and I still have another 100 or so to go. Whether or not I complete this book when my semester is over is a totally different ball game.
I’m back from residency, back from spending time with family, and back to the blog. Things have been a little rough, but with time, I feel healed and ready to go again.
I’ll try to maintain a steady posting schedule, at least twice weekly, with updates, book reviews and more ARC Round Ups, updates on my TBR and writing progress. I’m always putting too much pressure on myself when it comes to this blog and I’d like to try and see it less as a stress factory and more of a place to unwind and open up.
My semester at SNC started up again and my first packet is due in less than two weeks. Yikes! Reading ten books a month is hard to do, plus I’m trying to get a draft query ready by winter. But I’ve got a great mentor this semester (as if my previous mentors haven’t been great. Pablo and Lisa changed my life.) and I’m ready to get to work.
I’ve been reading more lately than I have in the past, and not just because of school. Maybe I’ll actually finish ACOWAR this month… But I’ve got plenty of ARCs waiting for me and I’m very excited for many of them. Especially Mask of Shadows!
During residency, JM Tuckerman and I holed ourselves up in a classroom, took over the whiteboards, and wrote a whole bunch. I broke 30k on this manuscript and I’m getting very close to the end. This might be the first draft I’ve ever written that’s come under my word count goal. Well, revisions are there to help boost that and I love the revision process.