It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything about my writing life. So let’s go!
I recently submitted my second packet work to my mentor. It’s my final semester and I’m writing my thesis now. It’s a lot to think about, and the added pressure that this project is going to define me as I get my MFA is just an extra dollop of stress and anxiety on top of my usual anxiety.
I want to present my best work, I always want to be able to show people what my best work is, but I’ve come to a realization that this project will never be my best work.
I’m falling in and out of love with this piece on a near daily basis. Some days I like it and some days I think it needs to die in a trash fire. But this goes beyond the usual Writer Thing writers do. It’s a urban fantasy/fantasy fiction/paranormal type piece (I used to call it suburban fantasy but paranormal probably fits better). The problem with this piece is that it’s entirely too contemporary for me.
I’m a huge lover of fantasy and my writing voice reflects that. Contemporary is not even close to my favorite. It’s my least favorite genre, to be honest. But the story I’m trying to write goes beyond just the genre, since it’s a story about grief and accepting the loss of a loved one.
But all I want to do is write my queer elven princesses and lesbian mermaids.
It’s a struggle.
But sometimes the things you want to do aren’t the things you need to do. I know this project will be a good thing to have in my pocket, regardless of how I feel about it. Plenty of authors have written books they hated, but the point was that it was a book they wrote.
Something is better than nothing and I’m 50 pages deep into this project and I still have another 100 or so to go. Whether or not I complete this book when my semester is over is a totally different ball game.
Not that I know how to play sports anyway.
I submitted my final packet of the semester last night and all I need to do is hear back from my mentor and I’ll be good to go.
It’s been a rough semester. Right around the start of October, I went into a deep, downward spiral and my depression just wouldn’t let up. It was a very rough few months. Then I caught some sort of sick about a month ago that hasn’t let up either so things were just not looking great.
But I made it through somehow and here I am on the other side, sniffling and still a little congested, but I’m here.
I’ve sort of come to kind of hate the project I was working on this semester. I know how I tend to write and forcing myself to work on a project I didn’t care for or I knew needed some time on the shelf just sort of made me hate everything I wrote.
My next semester is going to be my editing semester, where I get to work with an editor in the publishing industry who isn’t one of the professors, so I’m a little nervous. I hope that the list of editors is sent out soon and that there’s a dedicated portion for the Writing for Children and Young Adults students.
But, for now, and until residency starts, I’m going to go play some video games, plan my next D&D session, and let myself relax for a little bit. Maybe I’ll get around to my TBR pile…
Oh, hi there!
I seem to have fallen off this blog for a little bit, again. It’s been a rough few months.
I sort of stopped being able to handle blogging and writing and reading all at once at the end of September and it was just not a fun time for a while. A lot of things sort of came up at once and I was in a very bad mental health state through most of October. I took a vacation with my significant other in early November and that seemed to help clear my head a bit.
I’m back, though, and I’ve got a few reviews waiting in the wings to come up and strut their stuff. (Or lack thereof, if the book wasn’t necessarily that good…)
But I’m also still podcasting over at Booked All Night so you can keep up with some of my things over in that neck of the woods.
It’s almost the end of the year and I’m getting into crunch time in the last few weeks of the semester, so let’s hope this plague I’ve seemed to have caught at work doesn’t last for too long…
See ya around, lovelies!
I’m back from residency, back from spending time with family, and back to the blog. Things have been a little rough, but with time, I feel healed and ready to go again.
I’ll try to maintain a steady posting schedule, at least twice weekly, with updates, book reviews and more ARC Round Ups, updates on my TBR and writing progress. I’m always putting too much pressure on myself when it comes to this blog and I’d like to try and see it less as a stress factory and more of a place to unwind and open up.
My semester at SNC started up again and my first packet is due in less than two weeks. Yikes! Reading ten books a month is hard to do, plus I’m trying to get a draft query ready by winter. But I’ve got a great mentor this semester (as if my previous mentors haven’t been great. Pablo and Lisa changed my life.) and I’m ready to get to work.
I’ve been reading more lately than I have in the past, and not just because of school. Maybe I’ll actually finish ACOWAR this month… But I’ve got plenty of ARCs waiting for me and I’m very excited for many of them. Especially Mask of Shadows!
During residency, JM Tuckerman and I holed ourselves up in a classroom, took over the whiteboards, and wrote a whole bunch. I broke 30k on this manuscript and I’m getting very close to the end. This might be the first draft I’ve ever written that’s come under my word count goal. Well, revisions are there to help boost that and I love the revision process.
I know, I’m a weirdo.
Spring semester is over! Well, I just need to wait for feedback from my mentor, but I’ve submitted all of my work and I’m ready to relax!
This past semester has been really rough. I went through a lot of lows. I spent a lot of time fighting my depression and it took a toll on my work. I felt like I hadn’t been doing my best work at all, and it felt like I was letting my mentor down. (Despite her saying otherwise!)
Depression isn’t easy, y’all. I spent day after day in bed because that was all I could do; I could barely get the energy to get up to go to the bathroom. And when you have to create, you lose steam fast and I ended up not being able to do the things I needed to do.
But I’m surrounded by positive forces, people who care and understand the things I’m going through, and I’m able to get help. So, I’m a work in progress.
But all my work is in and I’ve got two and a half months before I’ve got to get back into student mode and I’m excited for the summer. I’ve got a lot of reading lined up, and writing plans to follow. Jessi and I have a new bookish blog, bookedallnight.wordpress.com, to work on and I’m looking forward to a lot of things.
This summer, we’ve got BookCon! The Round Robin girls are heading out together in one last hurrah before the site closes, and I can’t wait to spend time with them.
I’m also spending a month abroad this July. I have a few cousins getting married in Poland this summer so we’re spending three weeks in Europe. And immediately after I’m flying out for my summer residency at SNC. So I’ll be dealing with a 9 hour jet lag after two days of weddings.
Now, just to figure out what books I’ll be bringing to read on the plane…
The semester is coming to a close a little too quickly for my liking; I’ve got less than two weeks to go before I’m done with my first year at SNC!
It’s a little strange to think about how I’m halfway through my MFA program when initially I hadn’t even planned to attend one at all. But I’m always up for ways to further my craft and I’ve met some absolutely amazing people at SNC, and both of my mentors have been pivotal in my progress in my work. Without them, my work would suffer, and I’m eternally grateful to both Pablo and Lisa.
And of course, I’m grateful to Jessi, who’s my sounding board, motivational speaker and best friend. I definitely wouldn’t be where I am today without her.
There are a few changes coming up in the future, and I’m not quite in a place where I can talk about it just yet, but the news will be coming out soon. I’m a little sad to see some things go, but I am excited for the things to come.
Well, I guess it’s back to writing and planning!
It’s October! I keep promising to keep up with this blog more, but I always end up crushed under a pile of other responsibilities that this ends up being the first casualty. So. I’m back! Maybe!
So I was recently accepted in Sierra Nevada College’s Master of Fine Arts in Writing for Children & Young Adults.
It’s a mouthful, I know.
I was so nervous submitting my applications to any grad programs. I’ve always felt like I was a terrible student–at least academically speaking. But I got accepted to both programs I applied for! (But ultimately went with SNC due to the fact that it’s low residency and I can just work from home.)
So these past few months I’ve been reading & writing & surviving. Somehow. I’ve got plenty of books to read each month and plenty to write and revise too. It’s a lot, but I get individual attention to my work so that’s been incredibly helpful. Though I do prefer to just draft straight out before going back to revise.
It’s pretty fun stuff, getting to work with so many talented people (and incredibly smart people too!) and getting to see how I can grow with my craft. I know a lot of people don’t like MFA programs for a lot of reasons. Money being one of them. Trust me. I’ve pretty much doubled my student loans in just one year’s worth of grad tuition than I had with four and a half years of undergrad tuition.
But it’s been a great experience so far, and I can’t wait to see where it’ll take me next.